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Just got back to Sydney yesterday afternoon.

My first 24 hours have involved food (tho not meat pies unfortunately) and catching up with some family and family friends. So much has changed – no, I have changed so much since my last post, and most definitly since I was last here.

I actually don’t feel like this is home anymore. It’s a weird limbo, cos I’m continuously checin in with the Sydney I’d imagined and missed whilst overseas, and it’s nothing like it now. Feels bigger, dirtier, and flatter since I was last here. Then again it could be because we spent so much time in the Bankstown and Canterbury areas where I’d grown up. It hasn’t been the same for about a decade or more. Things look like they are falling apart- people keep moving out of the area.

It was so funny and embarrassing listening to my parents talk to one another – in one hour they’d made so many more racist jokes and remarks than I had heard in the entire year that I had spent in Canada! So brutal.

I have so much crap to organise here, and I really don’t want to waste my time doing that. My parents moved to a new house and it looks like much of the renovations and re-organisation has already taken place, but NONE of my stuff has been unpacked… So I have to start from scratch and throw out pretty much most things I don’t need.

Also, I don’t like my new bed here. The one I had in Vancouver was soooooooo good. This one is too hard and cold.

Things should look up later today – going to catch up with friends!

Love you all!!!

The list of things to do grows, yet again.

Sigh.

Going home soon. So much uncertainty in the air, it’s already killing me. I don’t plan to leave for another two months at least.
I wish I had more reason to be in one place or another. Hmmm, maybe “reason” is the wrong word.

This last week I’ve figured out a few things I want, and it’s kinda scary. I think I am entering a new time in my life… yet again.

Hmmm, this post seems to be getting more and more Emo. I will try not to derail into a emotional mess of multisyllabal words sputtering into the interweb as a post of confusion, pain, despair etc etc etc. Oh look. Too late.

Seriously though. I think I need some time to chill out and gather my thoughts. Develop some patience. Patience especially. Also, open mindedness… Is that one word. Also, vocabulary.

Sigh.

DON’T LOOK AT ME, I’M HIDEOUS!!!

So I have this theory that preeeeeetty soon, John Mayer will be the younger, slightly saner, musical Tom Cruise… minus the Scientology.

I love the dude, but he’s going a bit nutso at the moment. He’s always been a bit of a showman, a comedian, writer, performer, muso. And now it’s all going full throttle with his celeb status. See the new tattoo? Crazy Japanese style sleeve over his left arm incorporating his old tatts. Fair enough, technically a nice tatt. But JOHN MAYER doesn’t get sleeve tatts! It’s John Mayer! (I still love the three boxes on his right arm, one of my fave concepts ever for tattooage). Plus there’s a new faux-hawk. I’m not diggin’ this new “cool” style. And the Jennifer Aniston thing (well, I don’t really have too much of an opinion on that), but the dude seems to have too much time on his hand.

Go make that new album already!

(update: looking for computer bags I stumbled onto this, from JM’s recent holiday through Nippon. I think it’s funny as a JM fan, that I am more jealous that he is friends with incase, rather than the other way…)

• I’ve started to collect and display real art work from my fave international artists and friends.
• Painted my entire abode colours to my choosing.
• Bought a cute tea set!

Gigiddy Gigiddy.