s h ! n d ! d

Just got back to Sydney yesterday afternoon.

My first 24 hours have involved food (tho not meat pies unfortunately) and catching up with some family and family friends. So much has changed – no, I have changed so much since my last post, and most definitly since I was last here.

I actually don’t feel like this is home anymore. It’s a weird limbo, cos I’m continuously checin in with the Sydney I’d imagined and missed whilst overseas, and it’s nothing like it now. Feels bigger, dirtier, and flatter since I was last here. Then again it could be because we spent so much time in the Bankstown and Canterbury areas where I’d grown up. It hasn’t been the same for about a decade or more. Things look like they are falling apart- people keep moving out of the area.

It was so funny and embarrassing listening to my parents talk to one another – in one hour they’d made so many more racist jokes and remarks than I had heard in the entire year that I had spent in Canada! So brutal.

I have so much crap to organise here, and I really don’t want to waste my time doing that. My parents moved to a new house and it looks like much of the renovations and re-organisation has already taken place, but NONE of my stuff has been unpacked… So I have to start from scratch and throw out pretty much most things I don’t need.

Also, I don’t like my new bed here. The one I had in Vancouver was soooooooo good. This one is too hard and cold.

Things should look up later today – going to catch up with friends!

Love you all!!!