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I bought myself a radio last night. One of those doo-dads that let you play and charge your ipod too. At the time I thought it a wise investment – to improve my efficiencies as a punctual worker and an informed citizen of the world and what not. Big mistake.

I discovered (after sifting through Punjab, Chinese and French local stations) 94.5FM (one of the biggest commercial radio stations in Van). It was largely repetitive screaming by the female DJ telling millions of listeners about her meeting with David Beckham (Becks is here playing against one of the local teams or something). She was so annoying! Like listening to a 13 year old bicker and outdo her friends on who is the best! Drove me crazy! Who really cares if you think he’s “top-notch” or whatever (after the 4th time)?? Can I get some music? News? I seem to have very little alternative to listen to from my room. I did however, hear the new Britney Spears… Is that really the quality of pop right now?
I then woke up to advertising this morning, and that totally killed me. Can’t stand commercial radio, my head hurts. I want the J’s. In small doses.

Also yesterday, I tried to read a free local paper or two. All they did were depress me. The local lefty critical community paper was all about keeping your child’s brain away from the government’s dirty standardised skills tests and telling me how counter-culture is the new and last culture. I have half a mind to write a letter! Other papers were similar and the gang-wars of Vancouver right now don’t help. The news is so infuriating and depressing!

I guess I am starting to get back in touch with the world after having disconnected with it for the first time. I can now look from the outside and say “I don’t like it all that much”.
But then, I don’t want to be that person that shits allover everything. Infact, I think I am quite the optimist… haha… no, really.

I believe in the inherent good of most people.
I believe people are mostly, at least capable, of being smarter than what we are informed with.
I believe in a nearly cyclic human history. That is, yes we will repeat past mistakes (in varying forms), but will learn from it again and again. Becoming smarter and raising standards each time.
I believe there is no end. Someone is always going to have seen, felt, thought what you have; and that there is always someone better than you, and worse off at the same time. Someone will always pick up where you left off. The “revolution” is not over, it was never an event to start and end. That’s the problem. Maintenance. That’s the challenge.